Hiding

 

Yesterday was a "go through the dresser drawers" day for Brandon.  Unburying winter clothing outgrown months ago; trying on last year's summer clothes to see what still works and realizing nothing does.  He's grown so much since last summer that he's two sizes larger than any of the outgrown stuff.  It was comical to see him come out from changing in his room, squeezed into clothes that were oh so small.

 

There was something else interesting found during the course of this drawer digging.  Wrappers.  Just a few little cellophane candy wrappers shoved underneath the too small clothes.   We already knew he had candy from a treat bag gotten at school so why hide the wrappings?  Did he think the candy was unknown or that we would not find the wrappers?  Oh yes, I do believe I see some of my own tendencies here.

 

Genesis 3:8,9  ...the man and his wife heard the LORD God walking about in the garden.  So they hid from the LORD God among the trees.  Then the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?"

 

God created me for an eternal love relationship with Him.  So why do I try to hide my raw struggles and sins from Him?  Sometimes it isn't blatant; just not really acknowledging them to Him. I stuff the worst of them down under the too small clothes of control.  Do I  think somehow that if I don't throw them outright into the trashcan, then maybe they will go unnoticed?  

 

I think the reason I hide struggles and sins from God must be the same reason I sometimes get "too busy" to be alone with Him or to focus when I am alone with Him.  I think it is the same reason Adam and Eve hid after their sin so long ago.  I am ashamed; ashamed that He might tell me I am not following Him as I should.  I am afraid of what He might ask to me and of me.  I am stubborn and really just want to do what I want to do.

 

Hebrews 7:24,25 ...because Jesus lives forever, his priesthood lasts forever.  Therefore he is able, once and forever to save completely those who come to God through him.  He lives forever to intercede with God on their behalf.

 

God calls to me with His faithful love, "Where are you?"  Why am I hiding instead of going to meet Him when I hear Him all around me and He is waiting for me?  There is no room for hiding when Jesus has once and forever saved me completely.  I need to give away control, come out from hiding, openly throw my trash away and walk toward eternity with my God who sees me, knows me and loves me.